A Journey of Loss & Rediscovery
Smiling is something we often take for granted—a simple, automatic response to joy or comfort.
But what if you were unable to smile?
I faced this reality when I experienced Bell’s palsy, a temporary facial paralysis that affects one side of the face. Losing my smile, along with other functions, reshaped how I view this seemingly effortless expression.
Smiling is more than just a reflection of happiness; it is deeply connected to our mental & emotional well-being.
When we smile, even if it’s forced, our brain releases chemicals like dopamine, serotonin, and endorphins—mood boosters that also reduce stress and promote well-being. Forcing a smile can trigger these positive effects. The simple movement of our facial muscles can send signals to the brain, tricking it into thinking we’re happy.
When I was diagnosed, the right side of my face became paralysed. I lost control over basic functions like closing my right eye, tasting food properly. Even pronouncing words became difficult. Worst of all, I lost my ability to smile. I had to physically hold my right cheek when I tried to smile, speak, eat or drink. Smiling became a painful task, both physically and emotionally.
I had taken this expression for granted, like most of us do, until it was no longer possible. I quickly realised how much we rely on smiles to show our mood, empathy and approachability.
Smiling is not just a personal expression; it is a social tool.
Not being able to smile affected my confidence, I wanted to avoid social interactions entirely. However, I was somewhat fortunate that my condition occurred in March 2021 when masks were common.
For six weeks, my smile remained absent, and with it, so did a part of me. Smiling isn’t just about expressing happiness—it’s a way we connect with the world. My reflection became unfamiliar, and I struggled to stay positive, unsure how long it would take to recover or if I would ever regain full control. There was also the fear of synkinesis, a condition where voluntary movements like smiling cause involuntary twitching elsewhere in the face.
Then, slowly but surely, I began to regain control of my facial muscles. The first time I smiled without assistance was a moment of immense relief and hope. Although my recovery was short compared to others who face Bell’s palsy for months or even years, the emotional toll was significant.
I learned that smiling is an emotional anchor.
Smiling, even when forced, plays a crucial role in bridging our mental and physical well-being. It helps shift our mindset, reduces stress, and serves as a reminder of our resilience.
Whether you are recovering from an illness or just having a tough day, the act of smiling—however small—can be a powerful step toward well-being.
My journey taught me that something as simple as a smile holds immense power. It’s not just an expression of joy, but a symbol of hope and connection.
So, the next time you smile, take a moment to appreciate the gift it truly is.
Main – Photo by Sam McNamara on Unsplash
